I haven't blogged in a while because to be fair I have felt overwhelmed and am on a bit of a downswing. I'm sorry! I wrote this yesterday, for Suicide Prevention Day, but forgot to press send 🤦♀️ Let's start a real conversation on suicide and prevention. A real one. Not one where you try … Continue reading World Suicide Prevention Day 💔
I find it hard to relate to almost everyone. I feel like an alien wearing a human suit, reading from a script. I told my boyfriend I had writers block now I was entering recovery, and that I wasn't sure how to write now my mental health was stabilising. He said, "I don't know how … Continue reading How Do You Explain BPD To Someone?
I’ve had people tell me I’m beyond recovery. I’ve had people blame every emotion I have on eupd/bpd. I’ve had people turn a harassment case into an attack on my mental stability because they didn’t see what I saw. Having read my notes, I’ve always been very low-scale bpd. Even when at my worst. My … Continue reading Recovery To Me Is No Longer Having Enough Symptoms To Qualify For Diagnosis 😌
In both autism and bpd, the amygdala is hyperactive which leads to communicative and emotional diversities. Both have a dysfunctional Hippocampus. Both have abnormal cortisol levels thanks to the Hypothalamic-pituary-adrenal axis. Both have an ineffective Prefrontal Cortex. People with both disorders will present in childhood, though they say bpd is developmental whereas you’re born with … Continue reading Please Tell Me If You Enjoy My Lessons 😂
BPD Awareness Month is almost over. But the conversation isn’t. I live with BPD day in, day out, 7 days a week, 52 weeks a year, 365 days a year. BPD awareness doesn’t end for me. It controls my life. It is my life. Please take a moment to research borderline personality disorder. We’re largely … Continue reading We Have Our Own Month! 😍
This is mine. Facebook. August, 2017. It's been a long battle, where I felt like I'd almost completely lost my sanity, but today I got officially diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (bpd) and bipolar type 2. I feel like a weight has been lifted. Bpd is very stigmatised and misunderstood so let me clear a … Continue reading Everyone Has Some Kind Of “Coming Out” Story To Tell… 😇
Moods shift so suddenly, you don’t know if you’re coming or going. You love someone, but the slightest separation or argument can make you hate them, feeling as though they’ve “gone off” you. That’s splitting, where you go from idealisation to devaluation in the blink of an eye. The 9 symptoms of BPD are (you … Continue reading Can’t Have BPD Without Symptoms, Right? 😉
1.) In the United States, research has shown that 1.6% of the population has BPD. That means that there are over four million people with BPD in America alone, yet BPD isn’t as well known as other disorders. It’s actually more common than schizophrenia. 2.) Women are far more likely to be diagnosed with BPD … Continue reading Can’t Educate Without Some Facts, Right? 😉
I believe so. In my view, male aggression is so normalised in our society that men are often under-diagnosed, and women are viewed as hysterical and “emotionally unstable” (EUPD actually includes the term “emotionally unstable”). BPD emotions are NORMAL. Our reactions aren't deemed so. There is nothing “wrong” with us, we just process, feel and … Continue reading Is BPD a Sexist Diagnosis?
I had a hulk moment today; am sporting self inflicted bruises now. Plus I’m exhausted, drained, and a bit miserable that I gave in to it. Was only brief but felt like a lifetime. The fatigue and the aftereffects have lasted all day since my hulk out. I want to change my cycle but keep … Continue reading Hulk! Smash! 🤬