I haven't blogged in a while because to be fair I have felt overwhelmed and am on a bit of a downswing. I'm sorry! I wrote this yesterday, for Suicide Prevention Day, but forgot to press send 🤦♀️ Let's start a real conversation on suicide and prevention. A real one. Not one where you try … Continue reading World Suicide Prevention Day 💔
I've been called manipulative, because in a moment of feeling completely overwhelmed, I react in ways they don't understand. The definition of manipulation is: noun noun: manipulation; plural noun: manipulations the action of manipulating something in a skilful manner. the action of manipulating someone in a clever or unscrupulous way. It's not manipulative when it's done without … Continue reading Narcissism and Borderline
1.) meds are not a quick fix. Give it time to kick in and work. Always gets worse before it gets better. Please give it time. 2.) meds are not a cure. Please look into talking therapies to try to target the “root cause” of your illness. 3.) self-care is important. Spend the day watching … Continue reading 10 Things I’ve Learnt From a Lifetime of Mental Illness 🗣
So, heightened anxiety is something I've dealt with for along time. For some reason, this growing sense of panic has been suffocating me lately. I can barely breathe because of it. My chest is tight. My ears burn. I'm grinding my teeth so my jaw aches. My face feels hot. I'm cold, and shivering. I'm … Continue reading Panic 😱
Could I have been a better girlfriend? Yes. Could I have put more effort and time into our relationship? Yes. Could I have progressed at a quicker pace with him instead of keeping him at arm length? Yes. Could I have brought him into my family and actually made our talks/dreams a reality? Yes. Could … Continue reading Today, I Dumped My Boyfriend 💔
The question is designed to shed light on the negative consequences the patient *perceives* should occur within their family unit should the patient stop their self-destructive behaviours. I’ve personally never been asked this question, yet I have spent time ruminating on the question. What *would* happen if I suddenly got well, and stayed well? Nothing. … Continue reading What Would Happen If I Could Wave a Magic Wand and You Suddenly Got Better and Stayed Better? Alfred Adler’s Magical Question.
It’s when you’ve had a lot going on, are overwhelmed, and the tiniest thing tips you over the edge. It’s when you’re on your last nerve, and accidentally type your PIN number wrong in the shop, and you switch from polite conversation to lashing out, with zero control over the words that leave your mouth. … Continue reading What Is A BPD Meltdown?
Title is pretty self-explanatory really. My relationships have always been one-sided. I have always put their needs above my own, and I have always felt intense guilt and as though I am selfish when I say “no” and decide to put myself first. Sometimes, they actually call me selfish and make me feel as though … Continue reading Hi. I’m Rubes, and I’m codependent 😌
1.) I’m left-handed. We only make up about 10-15% of the population. Left-handers are more prone to migraines than their righty counterparts. The word “left” in English comes from the Anglo-Saxon word “lyft”, which means weak or broken. There are more lefty men than women. At least four of the most popular Presidents of the … Continue reading 10 Things You Probably Didn’t Know About Me 😝
There were a total of 1,068,020 domestic abuse-related incidents and crimes recorded by the police in England and Wales in the year ending March, 2017. Of these, 54% were incidents not subsequently recorded as a crime and remained as incidents. The law was changed in 2015 to include “coercive and controlling behaviour”. Considering it’s prevalence … Continue reading Is It Love Or Is It Abuse? 💔