I had a hulk moment today; am sporting self inflicted bruises now. Plus I’m exhausted, drained, and a bit miserable that I gave in to it. Was only brief but felt like a lifetime. The fatigue and the aftereffects have lasted all day since my hulk out. I want to change my cycle but keep failing.
When the rage comes, all logic goes out the window. Nothing exists besides you and this intense anger. It’s all-consuming. It devours you. It burns you. You can think of nothing besides it.
I don’t want to experience it anymore.